One year to Beijing Olympics 2008!!

One year to the Beijing Olympics 2008 - 8/8/2008 08:08

Too bad that I can't go and join them, but I'm still proud that the Olympics is going to be held in my country. Although China has been attacked politically and in many other ways for many reasons and people are hoping to see the failure of the Beijing Olympics, I'm still very confident that it will be a good show.

Why am I writing this?

I start wondering why I am writing this blog.. I really wonder if there is anyone actually reading this, if there is anyone who actually care what I did and what I think...

One of the things that you have to overcome when being overseas is loneliness. Of course you can easily find friends to hang around if you want to. But if you are somebody like me, who need someone to share your thoughts....well then..

I don't actually feel very lonely now as I don't always need company and I prefer to be alone most of the time. Just that I find it harder and harder to find people to understand me, maybe I'm too weird.

arghh.. I guess I'm a bit drunk..

I've been drinking every night these days.. and I found that I'm a bit allergic to alcohol.. that's bad..

My favourite sleeping pose

Can't remember how many time I had wonderful dreams on his chest.. Can't remember how long I haven't had good dreams since I have to sleep alone..
When will I find my next one?

A conversation

Girl: Don't worry. I'll give you a kiss!

Boy: Don't do that in front of pretty girls!!

Girl: ......

10 items or less

Sometimes in life you have to change lanes - 10 items or less

10 items or less - things I hate/don't want

1. My depression

2. My legs

3. Seperations

4. Stupidity

5. Politics

6. Racism

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10 items or less - things I wanna keep/get

1. My family

2. My cats

3. My best friends

4. Hugs, hugs & hugs

5. Love

6. Sunshine

7. Happiness

8. Champagne

9. Sex

Tonight

I wanna dance.
Well.. but I dunno how to dance.. haha

Funny ad, simple message

The message cannot be more clearer here. =P

To my brother

Happy birthday to my dearest big brother Charles.
Wish your dreams come true so that my only dream can come true too.. hehe

I love you!

sis.

Destined

I'm really lost right now. I wonder how long I can stand for this anymore. I start to believe this is all destined. No matter how hard I try, nothing's gonna change.

Just about two weeks ago, I started to feel so energetic about my life and my future. For those who know me well, u know this is miracle. I started to plan for my furture. I started to enjoy my life. I started to accept the fact that I'm alone. I started to find jobs, find housing. I started exercising regularly and eating normally. I don't mind meeting new friends anymore. I'm even looking for part time jobs to do during the semester. These are all mircales to me.

Just that everyone and even myself started to think my future is going to be happy and bright, everything changed. Now, I'm going back to the same old me. Hopeless and useless. While this is the prime time to get to know new friends, go to explore the country and find part time jobs, all I can do is stuck in my little room, wait for emails and calls. And they all gave me bad news..

Should I give up? If I want to, how to give up? If I want to fight, how long can I fight? How much time do I still have?

I really wish you were here with me.

The last...

God suddenly put me on an invisble roller coaster recently and my future is yet unknown. Went out with my best friend here in SG this afternoon and very likely this will be our last time seeing each other. When I reached home, I realized that we have never taken any photos together.. sigh. But lucky enough I took this nice picture, which always reminds me the good times in Singapore and this very best Singaporean friend.