Seven Daffodils

Seven Daffodils
I may not have mansion, I haven't any land
Not even a paper dollar to crinkle in my hands
But I can show you morning on a thousand hills
And kiss you and give you seven daffodils.
I do not have a fortune to buy you pretty things
But I can weave you moonbeams for necklaces and rings
And I can show you morning on a thousand hills
And kiss you and give you seven daffodils.
Oh, seven golden daffodils all shining in the sun
To light our way to evening when our day is done
And I will give you music and a crust of bread
And a pillow of piny boughs to rest your head.
A pillow of piny boughs to rest your head...

Leaving in a month

One month left in Aus..
I'm leaving here on the 28th Dec..
another New Year Eve alone in a foreign country.. so weird..
but I'll be fine.

Small potato

I used to be an important person among my family, my friends, my classmates and my colleagues in the past.
People always come to me for suggestions when they have problems.
They trusted me, they thought that I have good analysis skills.

But everything has changed.
Nobody trust me now, not my family, not my friends, not my colleagues, of course not my classmates.
Somehow I know why.
Coz they think I can't even manage my own life.
and yes, they're right!

Honestly, I don't really wanna get back to the "important role" I used to have.
However, sometimes I do want to get involve and give suggestions especially when I notice somethings wrong!
but no one cares what I said now..sigh
yes.. I'm a small potato now.

fine, of course I don't care people don't come to me for they problems,
becoz it must be something wrong about me when they do so!
but, why are they excluding me even when those issues are related to me??
am I really that NOT important??
What I feel is that they just want me to shut up and say nothing and do whatever they say.
but I'm already 28.
should I be allowed to say something or at least let me know what's going on?

I know how people view me..
I'm 28 and still studying in university.
but what can I do?
I have no choice.
People want me to have a fxxking Bachelar Degree.
I don't mean I don't want it.. but I didn't want to give up my job and go overseas for 3 whole years at age 27!
I don't think I cant sucess without a Degree
and I'm not giving up my studies, I'm willing to do a part-time degree in HK.
But that's not they want.. and I'm doing want they want now..
and "furthering studies" doesn't make people respect me, on the other hand, i somehow feel that i've been looked down.

yes.. I know I shouldn't care about how people think about me..
but what about my family? shouldn't I care about them?
I came to study becoz of them.. and they now don't respect me anymore..

but.. what else can I do..?
I'll just accept my new role - small potato!

I'll just get away from people, friends and family..
and that's why I'm going to Singapore next month.. so I can live alone again.

it's time for me to live for myself.

Lie, damned lies and statistics

Social Situations
Lies are told in approximately one out of every three social situations.

Protect yourself
People's willingness to lie is motivated by their desire to protect their public self-image and also their internal sense of worth

Lying to friends
People are more willing to lie about performance on a task to people they know as opposed to people they do not know.

It's subjective
People are more likely to lie about their performance on a task when the results are subjective, as opposed to objective.


Argo, J.J., White, K. & Dahl, D.W. (2006) "Social comparison theory and deception in the interpersonal exchange of consumption information." Journal of Consumer Research, 33, 99-108

2 interesting animations

Male Restroom Etiquette

Nina and Gundam (Cat VS Gundam)


enjoy~

Leaving Australia

I'm going to study overseas (again) next year!
I've applied for exchange to National University of Singapore and finally got approved last week.
I just need some more administration stuff do deal with..
and I'm set to go..

I'm 1/4 way to death..

I've already done 27 of these..
101 things to do before you die

1 Write a Best-Seller
2 Swim With Shark/Whale/Dolphin... -- I wish
3 Win an Award, Trophy or Prize -- Done
4 Catch A Fish With Your Bare Hands
5 Make a Discovery
6 Throw A House Party When Your Parents Are Out
7 Be Part Of A Threesome -- hmm..
8 Realise Your Childhood Dream -- I don't recall I have one..
9 Learn That Instrument -- yeah.. I play piano and I'm learning flute but I will learn one Chinese instrument one day!
10 Leave Your Mark In Graffiti
11 Storm Chase A Tornado
12 Get A Piece of Art into a Exhibition -- Done!!
13 Meet Someone With Your Own Name -- Done! when I was in kindergarten!!
14 Ride the World's Biggest Rollercoasters -- no way!
15 Stage Dive or Crowd Surf
16 Get into the Guinness Book of World Records
17 Own a Pointless Collection -- what's the point?
18 Study the Kama Sutra and Put Theory Into Practice
19 Master Poker and Win Big in a Casino
20 Get Backstage and Get Off With a Rock God
21 Be a Human Guinea Pig
22 Go Up in a Hot Air Balloon -- probably will do that soon in Canberra
23 Get Arrested -- wtf?
24 See a Space Shuttle Launch -- Done, on TV though...
25 Capture the Moment in an Award-winning Photograph
26 Bungee Jump
27 See an Erupting Volcano
28 Sky Dive -- I really want to do this!
29 Meet Your Idol -- Done, met on street
30 Stay in the Best Suite in a Five Star Hotel -- Done
31 Experience Weightlessness -- do those in dreams count?
32 See the Aurora Borealis
33 Get to Score a Hole in One -- not interested~
34 Design Your Own Cocktail
35 Play a Part in Your Favourite TV Show -- been on TV, not my favourite show though
36 Visit Every Country -- how many are they?
37 Make Fire Without Matches -- Done, with a lighter!
38 See These Animals in the Wild -- I actually wish all the animals to be returned to the wild..
39 Go to the Dogs -- Done, if it means dogs races.
40 Get a Free Upgrade on a Plane
41 Be Friends With Your Ex -- Done, we were together for > 4 yrs, and now we've been good friends for almost another 4 yrs
42 Hit Your Targets
43 Throw a Dart into a Map and Travel to Where it Lands -- pretty interesting idea!
44 Attend a Film Premiere
45 Do a Runner From a Fancy Restaurant
46 Scuba Dive -- Done
47 Milk a Cow
48 Be Present When Your Contry Wins the World Cup -- when will China win?
49 See Both Solar and Lunar Eclipses
50 Write Your Name Over a Star on the Walk of Fame
51 Learn Another Language -- Done
52 Read the Greatest Books Ever Written -- which one is it?
53 Complete a Coast to Coast Road Trip Across America
54 Make at Least One Huge Purchase You Can't Afford -- Done, too many times..
55 Score the Winning Goal/Try/Basket
56 Gatecrash A Fancy Party
57 See the All-time Greatest Films -- Done, Dancing in the Rain. watched publicly in Melbourne, & learnt the dance, + it was raining!!
58 Live in the Place You Love -- Done, I love HK
59 Leave a Job You Hate -- Done
60 Take Part in a Police Line-up
61 Get Away with the Perfect Practical Joke or Hoax
62 Join the Mile High Club
63 Make the Front Page of a National Newspaper
64 Drive a Car at Top Speed
65 Shout 'Drinks Are on Me!' in a Pub or Bar
66 Be Part of a Flash Mob
67 Visit ... -- well.. I'd love to visit every part of China & SE Asia before I die
68 Save Someones Life
69 In Various Languages, Learn to ...
70 Invent a Word That Makes it into the Dictionary
71 Have Adventurous Sex -- nice
72 Have Enough Money to Do All the Things on This List
73 Stand on the International Date Line
74 Learn to Fly a Plane
75 Get a Tattoo and/or a Piercing -- Done
76 Invent Something -- Done, can't tell u until I get a patent though..
77 Learn Astronomy and Read the Night Sky -- Done, not expert though
78 Drink a Vintage Wine
79 Answer a Personal Ad -- Done, I made a few pen-pals when I was a kid
80 Spend Christmas on the Beach -- I'm probably doing this this Christmas!
81 Get Barred From a Pub or Bar -- Done
82 Build Your Own House
83 Skinny Dip at Midnight -- one of my dreams..
84 Sell all Your Junk on eBay and Make a Profit
85 Visit the World's Tallest Buildings -- so I have to go to Taiwan for the Taipei 101.. yeah!
86 Run a Marathon -- this will be my last thing to do on my list.. coz I will definitly die after this!
87 Conquer Your Fear -- Done, I used to fear about getting on a flight
88 Get Married Unusually -- I only wish there is somebody in the world who want to marry me..
89 Throw Away the Instant Noodles
90 Join the 16-Mile High Club -- what is the difference btw this one and no. 62?
91 Publish a Cult Website
92 Own an Original Work of Art -- Done, I consider my photos as art..
93 Complete the Monopoly Board Pub Crawl
94 Get Something Named After You
95 Get Revenge
96 Be an Extra in a Film
97 Live Out of a Van
98 Go On a Demonstration -- Done, on 1 July 2003, HK
99 Confess -- Done, not in church though
100 Reach 100 Years of Age
101 Continue Your Gene Pool -- I love kids! I wish I can do this soon.. but..no one loves me.

Something wrong with these English words..

Think about these English words... so interesting..

• Why is abbreviation such a long word?
• sesquipedalian means the overuse of long words!
• noses run while feet smell
• verb is actually a noun!
• Why is it that a man with hair on his head has more hair than a man with hairs on his head??
• rearrange the letters in funeral.... it becomes real fun... same thing happens to silent and listen!
• have a thought to these words: unexpected surprise, free gift, advance warning, frozen ice, empty space, end result, past experience, rough estimate, actual facts, multiple choice.... and lots more!

More can be found from Teresa Monachino's Words Fail Me, a very interesting book!!

I need a hug

I am hunger for a big hug now.. as I always do..

I'm always lack of hugs..
always..
maybe since I was born..
my mom said I always cried at night and everyone had to hold me in turns throughout whole nite..
everyone being mom, dad and my grandma.. and I think sometimes even my grandpa..

being a Chinese.. as u grow up.. u got less and less hugs.. except from your lovers.. (who not yet marry with u!!)
so.. I was always lack of hugs!!

the most satisfied time was the time I was in the hotel school.. where I got heaps of hugs from many friends everyday!!
I was so happy!!
especially I am sooo tiny compared to those giant guys.. and they always so generous in giving me hugs..

but after that time.. I'm suffered from lacking of hugs again~~

I used to forced my ex-bf to give me hugs every nite..
Actually our relationship started with a long hug - a overnite hug that made our waists sore
we used to love hugging each other.. but.. he's probably hugging her right now.

anyway...
I was looking forward to get more hugs when I return to Australia the 2nd time..
however.. things were different..

I was fine until these days..
My dreams were full of hugs with friends and guys..
and a guy I used to love very much years ago suddently came to my dreams almost every nite..
so strange!! I've not seen him for so many years~
and especially today..
I was alone at home..
woke up with dream about him and some other things..
later on tonite found out that our team didn't do so well in Markstrat..
and watched the film ..
all these things... made me cried finally..

well.. I wish somebody could give me a hug..

International friends vs HK friends

Studying at ANU is quite a different experience to studying in the hotel school in Sydney.
Here we go to classes my ourselves, after that, people just leave almost without talking to one another..
In the hotel school, we all stayed on campus, we had small classes.. everyone knows each other..
so you can make lots of friends in 2-weeks time.

I used to chat a lot with friends from all different countires..
I tried to stay away from the HK people to get away from rumors..
Talking with Western friends make me feel more comfortable although sometimes I can say exactly what I wanted to express.
I love making friends with them

Coming back again to Australia this time, I stay with my sisters instead.
In this kind of university and this kind of living environment, I only made a few real friends.. most of them are Asian..
I tend not to tell HK people all my history even my age.. becoz it will simply cause me more trouble..
It's not my perception to them.. it's the truth..

Lucky me..
Nothing bad happened till now except for a really bad 2 months relationship with a HK guy which I really regret.
And.. in my last semester here.. I did meet some friends from other nationalities.

Kate, a lovely girl from Thailand..
she's smart, cute, funny..
I can just talk to her with all funny things..
Working with her was a wonderful experience..

Benn, a huge Australia guy..
Although he always laughed at me..
he's a real good man.
He helped me alot with my exchange plan..
I can tell him everything I want and no need to worry about him telling anyone else..

I really wish I met these two lovely people the 1st day I came to ANU..
well.. I should content with what I've got at the moment... shoudn't I?

hmm.. of course..
I do have good friends in Hong Kong..
but it seems no way for me to meet good HK people here..
my friends in HK are just too good.. I always miss them..
especially my lifetime best friend Iris, and the guy who loves me the most in the world - my "big brother" Charles..
They are always in my mind.. always..

The people I met in HK and the HK people I met in Australia are so different!!
I shouldn't say all HK people studying overseas are crap.. (well..I'm one of them.. )
but as far as I experienced.. some of them just came here for "freedom"..
there's a big difference between the purposes of Western people studying overseas and HK people studying overseas..
Western people really want to experience life.. want to meet friends.. want to travel..
but HK people... they do not have any inspirations..
they don't even know what they are doing..

Am I blaming those HK people?
NO!
what makes them like this is the education system in HK..
they never teach students how to "think"..
It is the worst thing in the world..

well.. I'll talk about more about this later.