Vincent

A much touching version of the very famous song Vincent in HK these days.

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colours on the snowy linen land

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds and violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colours changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artists' loving hand

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget

Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They're not listening still
Perhaps they never will...

Cry

I decided to have a good cry tonight.
A deadly cry from now till dawn.
So good.. it's raining heavily again..
Is God also crying for me?
I don't think so...
no one will cry for me, people will just laugh at me.
and say "This is what you deserve.. "
sadly, they are damn right on that.

You Don't Bring Me Flowers Neil Diamond

You don't bring me flowers
You don't sing me love songs
You hardly talk to me anymore
When I come through the door
At the end of the day

I remember when
You couldn't wait to love me
Used to hate to leave me
Now after lovin' me late at night
When it's good for you, babe
And you're feelin' alright
Well you just roll over
And turn out the light
And you don't bring me flowers anymore

It used to be so natural
To talk about forever
But "used to be's" don't count anymore
They just lay on the floor'
Til we sweep them away

And baby, I remember
All the things you taught me
I learned how to laugh
And I learned how to cry
Well I leared how to love
even learned how to lie
So you'd think I could learn
How to tell you goodbye
You don't bring me flowers anymore

Well you'd think I could learn
how to tell you 'goodbye'
You don't say you need me
You don't sing me love songs
You don't bring me flowers anymore

couldn't find any better video.. sorry

Hey There Delilah - Plain White T.

Hey There Delilah - Plain White T.

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Time Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

Be myself, Be alone

It's the time.
Be myself.
Be alone.
Be lonely.

Fantastic night

Last night, I went out for dinner with my groupmate from the MNO class.
This is the best group I've ever met in university..
really great..
really fun..

We went for a drink at a pub first and dunno who decided to eat there as well..
but obvsiously that wasn't a very good idea..
coz the food there wasn't as good as the drink...
but the atmosphere was excellent!!
I really love that place and I wish I could go there again.

After dinner we went for a movie..
the 4 of us went to see the Fantastic 4: Rise of the Silver Surf
since we didn't plan for it and it was Saturday...
we only mananged to get the FIRST row...
hahaa..
but it was still ok for me..

I had lots of fun last night..

After movie, we took the J2 back home..
what's J2??
it's Jeremy no.2...
operates 24hrs a day... all around the country
much better than the A1 and A2 shuttle bus in school..

hahaa..

I have to thank Fengxu (Everyone), Stanley (Someone) and Jeremy (No One) for bring me such a good night!!

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When I reached home..
I saw the cat I met on Friday night and Saturday morning..
She was waiting for me.
Lucky I had the pet food with me..
so i took the can food out and feed her..
she seems quite hungry and finished it in a second..
I sat there with her for half an hour..
she didn't want me to go..
but I also could't bring her to my room..
poor kitty..
I know that she need someone to love her..
I told her that I know how she feels..
I also need someone to love me..
But this is the best I can do now..
I can only go down and play with her for one hour each day..
if I have a home here, I will take her back..
but I'm so sorry.. I can't help..
I know she will understand..
at least I can tell she trusts me.. and she knows I love her.

cats are so much better than human.
they know who love them and who don't.

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Today, I feel so empty..

I notice that I'm those person who should not go out for fun.
coz after I have fun, I feel extremely lonely and bored.

What's even worse was..
the rain starts when my vacation starts...
I can't even take my camera out to take photos..

I'm so depressed now.

Nice dream

I had a beautiful dream last night.
Very very nice dream...
I got a chance to eat all my favourite food..
especially those I can't eat in AU or SG...
so nice..

Of course, every places have their own good food..
and I also like to food here in Singapore..
but i do really miss the food in HK..
that's very nice to have a chance to taste them even in dreams... hehe..

another thing in my dream was..
HE was holding my hand.. HE was my bf...
funny but I feel nice..
although it won't come true in reality.
But still... at least I got a chance in my dream.. hehee..

haha..
back to reality now..

Why do you study??

Why do you study??
Why are you/were you in school?
You wanna learn or you wanna pass all the exams??

I felt really sick that today when we were having the last MNO class,
everyone was prying the lecturer about the exam questions.
Exam will be on tomorrow, if you have enough preparation, why do you need those exam questions.
Besides, the lecturer has been giving us hints on exam questions throughout the courses..

actually the thing is..
is exam SO important?
are we suppose to learn rather than anything else?

I mean.. if you are just going to study for the exam questions...
what's the point of you sitting there for the whole month?

personally I enjoy learning a lot more..
I love reading, even text books, I love them..
I love the "WOW" moment that I found something I didn't know before..
I think that is more important than exam.

well... maybe I'm really a weird person, as one of my friends always said.

but sorry to say that, I really look down on those people.
their behaviour is even worse then those high school students.
and they are studying in University!
a so-call world class university...

Hug Hug Hug

If you know long enough about me, you should know that I'm a person that ALWAYS suffer from "lack of hugs"
Yes.. It started when I was a baby.. haha..

Yesterday while I was sleeping in the afternoon, I was woken up by a SMS.
You should know ho w it feels when you are woken up while you are in your deep deep sleep...
So, I was a bit lost and almost went crazy..
At that moment, I suddently want a big big hug again!
yeah, a big big long lasting hug..
I even changed my MSN tagling to "I need a HUG!!"

And.. I really got a hug last night, in my dream!!
what a surprise..
but...
Why was he hugging me??
He is the person that I'd never ever think that I'll be hugging him.. even for a second...
we are friends, and he's fun..
everytime we meet, we argue, we hit each other, we have fun..
but hug?? really can't imagine.. hahaa..
especially that was not really a friendship hug in the dream.. hahahaa...

whatever...

maybe I should give him a call one day..

Marriage

What is marriage to you?
At what circumstances will you get married?

Here are three real life stories that I heard from different people today:

Far from imagination
This is a story of my lecturer's friend.
She is a pretty girl, smart, got a job with high salary.
She met a guy online and kept contact with him for 2 years.
They were in different parts of the same country.
The guy understood her so well and their relationship went very well too.
One day, the girl decided to invite the guy to visit her.
so the guy went all the way from his home town to her places, took him 6 - 7 hours drive.
It was a weekend..
The guy knocked on the door.. the girl opened it...
She was shocked... the guy was a 300+ pound guy that people usually use the word "white trash" to describe him..
The girl's mother was even shocked.
But she still went for dinner with him and let him stayed for the weekend.
Her mother expected her to end the relationship as everyone else did..
but... she didn't.
She continued dating with him.. and he moved to the town where the girl lived.
Becoz of the relationship, the guy lost half of his weight, got a job.. everything went well..
but somehow the girl suffered.. her life went down hill..

they broke up at the end..

Online proposal
This is another girl's story.
She is a Korean girl. Once she went to Canada to study.
And she met an exchange student from Singapore.
They met only once in Canada and after that they keep contact using only emails.
One day..
the guy proposed to her through email.. and she accepted.
she flew from Canada to Singapore just a few days before their wedding..
and that was the second time this couple met each other.
They live happliy ever after.

Engagement before seperating
This is my friend's story, told by another friend.
She is a Chinese who has been studying in Singapore for quite a few years.
She met an exchange student from Canada last semester and eventually fell in love with each other.
The guy is going back to Canada soon and the girl will be heading to France for exchange this Decemeber.
And.. they are going to have their engagement before they have to be apart.


Life is so interesting.
When will you and how will you be married??
Have you ever thought about that?

Ending soon

Special semester is coming to the end this week.
Just submitted my term paper for New Media and Community this morning.
Don't really care about the grade I will get.. I'm not really interested in the assignment.
Exams are coming up soon, on Friday and Saturday.
This is probably the first time that I started my revision that early, thanks to my groupmates.

Last night when I was writing my assignment,
the same question came up to my mind again: "Why can't I start writing my paper until the night before due date?"
Yes.. this is me.
Don't really know when I started this bad habit, I never start typing one word until the night before I have to hand it my assignment.
That's crazy, isn't it?

But don't think that I never prepare for my assignment.
Usually I start right after I get the topic.
Especially when I was in ANU, they used to give us the assignment topic right at the beginning of the semester.
Most of the time, I was quite interested in the topic that I was asked to do, and ideas pumped up to my head..
Then I went to library, searched for books, articles...
and most of the time, I had my paper done "in my mind" at very early stage.

However, it always takes me ages to make myself sit in front of the computer and actually type out the paper.
I feel very painful about it.
I know the reason... it's because by the time I finish my assignment "in my mind", I've already learnt something.
And I see no point of typing it out..

Same thing happens after I come to NUS..
the difference is.. I figured it out last night, that I actually didn't feel interested in any reports that I've been asked to do.
Last semester was the worst... except for the advertising project maybe..
but all other assignments... I really feel painful doing them..

Special semester is a bit different though.
Everything is so quick that you'll never realize the pain..
for the Managing Organization class, the "assignment" was super fun, coz it was just presentation and my groupmates are brilliant.
for New Media and Community, there is only individual assignment, and the guideline was so unclear and constantly changing..
that was very annoying..

There were two parts of the assignment in the New Media module, the Interim Report and the Final Paper..
for the Interim, there was no clear guideline of what they are expecting.. so I just did whatever I think is suitable..
as usual, I didn't start writing until the night before..
and even worse, I started 6am in the morning... while the report was due 10am..
I managed to finish the 5-page report in 3hrs.. didn't even double check my work.. so I had a word "life" written as "live".. hahaa..
but.. interestingly.. I've got 6 out of 7 marks..
that's more than I expected..

Last night I started a lot earlier, at about 2am I think..
but i need to write 10pages..
(actually I feel very annoying that NUS uses "pages" instead of "number of words")
Originally I thought that I can use my Interim report as the basis.. but since the lecturer suddently gave us another guideline...
I have to do it all over..
that's really really painful..
and I don't really see the point to have that stupid Interim report...
anyway..

I've been reading lots of articles and books about the topic these days..
so writing it up was not very time-consuming..
but I didn't know that the reference list would like me an hour to finish it..
since NUS uses a different reference style as ANU.. I need to learn it and make sure that I won't mix up with the style that I've been using for a long time.

by the way.. this is really the first assignment in NUS that I was really required to reference properly..
when I was in Business School last semester.. my impression is.. no one cares about that..
I hope this is a mis-perception..

hmm.. guess I'd better sleep..
although I've slept for the whole afternoon.
but I have to get some sleep tonight so that I can study tomorrow for the whole day..

I feel a bit lost now...
Don't really know what I should do after the semester..
Will my travel plan really come true???