Another guy

Can't believe I'm writing another guy just two days after the previous one...
but!! don't get me wrong. This is a totally different story!!
This guy.....

He is one of my groupmates in Promotional Management project.
I almost gonna had a fight with him just now in the meeting.. hahaha
of course.. I will never do that.
and this is my very first time to "be pissed off" during any group meetings in my entire life!!

I think he's those type that my sister described about her Singaporean groupmates in Australia..
He thinks that he got the most brilliant ideas in the world.. so never hear what other people say..
Whenever someone say something, he will interrupt with "What you mean by... (repeating the person's sentence)"
Then whenever he got his idea.. he will say "Oh.. this is what we should do"

Well.. for those who got his response of "what you mean by...." is already lucky..
people like me.. whom he think i'm nobody... will just ignore me..
he can really do that!!
I feel that's so funny.. when we are in a group.. when I say something.. he just seems that I'm not even there...
and when I'm in the mid-way of my sentence.. he just starts talkiing!!
wow.. how respectful is that!!
I observed his behaviour for 2 of our meetings.. and figured out he only do that to me..
but I dunno why... maybe I'm really nobody.. hahahaa

actually I dun really mind whether he ignores me or not..
so whenever he interrupts me, I just shut up and keep silent and let him speak.
but just now when we were having the meeting.. I did something I never do before..

coz he always think he got the most brilliant idea..
so as usual he was talking about his idea of how we should do our project..
well.. if he really had good ideas.. (hmm.. at least feasibily idea I should say).. I won't do such things
but.. what he said is like... we should do "less" than others groups do to be "special".......

........

to be fair.. let me clarify the thing..
there are 6 components we could do in our project.. we can choose to do whatever suitable for the ad campaign.
since the campaign is going to last for 3-6mths and there is no budget constraints,
it's very likely for all groups to fully utilize all components if they could..
what this guy saying is.. we should only do one of them... to be "special"...
and that "one" he chosen.. was not even an effective way to advertise (although he claim that is the MOST effiecent one..)

when he was saying his brillian idea.. all of us were is silent..
one of our groupmates seems to be his gf.. so she had nothing to say.. I understand that..
the other 2 girls.. they are very nice girls.. they tried to talk to him and tried to change his mind..
but what he did is keep is "what u mean by" strategy...

the project is due in 3-wks time.. I don't want to delay it anymore..
I know the other 3 girls are too nice.. they don't want to make him angry or whatever.. (that's a Chinese culture, conflict avoidance, isn't it)
but then... someone has to do it..
so I do what I think I should do..
I "argued" with him.. with my limited English skills..
and acted like pissed off... like this ->
and insisted to use other components..

somehow I dun care what he thinks about me.. he's not the king anyway.. I don't need to please him..
I just had enough of him..
It always sounds like the 4 of us are doing a project, and he's the judge and simply ban everything and make us follow him..
well... actually.. I don't need to care about the marks since I'm on exchange, I don't have my grade on my script..
but I do care what I do!

well.. 3 weeks to go..
I didn't expect the project to be a good one
I do think it will be much more better without him seriously..
I can see it from last meeting.. 4 of us worked very well..
anyway.. I do hope that at least the campaign is a feasible one... bless me...

That guy...

Haven't had this feeling for a very very long time.
I still remember the last time I had the same feeling,
was the nite when I saw the conductor performing on the stage in an orchestra.
I was soooooo attracted by him.
I was sooo attracted by a man, just simply because of his physical appearance.
And it was long long time ago.

It happens again these few days.. when I met this guy.
I know nothing about him of course.. at least up till now.
But I've already met him three times at different places in the Faculty.

First time, I was studying in the library.
I was very tired that day, as usual.. leaning myself on the table while using my laptop.. almost fell asleep..
I noticed him walked by the corridor.. not becoz of his appearance at the first sight..
just becoz he was holding a huge camera.. with a very long lens..
I also take photos.. so I start wondering.. what will be his "target" today..
but then I felt that he noticed me.. I think it's becoz i was the laziest ppl in the library..
all others were very energetic about their work..
I knew exactly what he's going to do.. as a photographer..
he walked away for a little while..
then came back as if there was nothing happened..
I was quite cooperative actually.. I kept myself staring at my laptop... kept my position..
and I heard the sound.. he took a few shots of me..
hahaa.. he's not a very good one though.. his camera is too noisy... that even he was standing quite far away.. i could still hear very clearly..
after a few shots.. I couldn't stand anymore.. I turned my head to him..
as if I just noticed him (hahaha).. and of coz.. i knew that... he quickly walked away...

but just that second when I looked at him.. I was a bit shocked..
I was really attracted by his appearance... his outlook, his style, even the way he hold his camera... just perfect..
I just wish that I had my camera with me so that maybe we could have something to talk.. hahaha...

OK.. a few days later... I met him the second time.. not in the library anymore..
I was sitting in one of the benches in the Faculty using my laptop (again!)... waiting for my friends..
and then I saw him walked by.. with his camera (again!)
I'm sure he saw me.. why? coz I know.. when a photographer carrying his camera, he will just look at everything around him..
so.. it's not "me" that make him look at me.. just becoz I was around.. (if u understand what i'm saying)
he walked pass my bench and disappeared within 5 seconds.. he is soo tall so he walks very fast...
but after a few minutes.. he appeared again~
I was quite happy to see him again..
Although I'm not going to introduce myself to him.. seeing such a good-looking guy could just make my day a lot better!

Lucky me.. I met him AGAIN on the next day..
he didn't see me this time.. coz he was very far away from me..
this time, I was just talking with my friends outside the library
and I happened to see him in an office opposite the library..
hmm.. i think... there's where he works..
coz he doesn't look like an undergrad at all..
at that time.. i've a weird idea..
one day.. i'm going to take a picture of him.. coz he took mine already~~
hahaa


By the way..
I feel so crazy about myself being attracted by a total stranger after all these years..
I mean.. well...
this is not love.. i know..
i'm not going to love anyone anymore.. and I won't let anyone to love me as well.. at least at this moment..
coz.. I can't trust anyone.. and I don't trust love..

the only love I trust.. is the love from my two cute cute cats..
they still love me so much even I leave them alone and go for studying for 2 and a half years
they are still waiting for me..
during CNY, I went back to HK.. I stayed with them most of the time..
I can feel their love... this is something that no one on earth can give me...

But to be honest.. as a woman..
I do long for hugs.. lots of hugs..
I mean being hugged..
that's why I like big guys..
my friends said my ex is not big enough for me.. they said my 1st bf was better..
but he did give me lots of good hugs that made me feel safe..
well... these things... all past already... didn't they?
I do sounds like a kid sometimes..
anyway...

one other thing...
anyone know how to kill headache except for panadol or any medicine?
I dunno why recently I have headache like almost everyday which is very annoying..

World pollution - who to blame?

another scary news today about the future of the world..
of course.. the hot topic "global warming" again
A report said that by the end of the century, there will be 1.1 - 3.2 billion people suffering from water scarcity causing by global warming,
200 - 600 million of people facing food shortage, and 7 million of homes suffering from flooding.
And.. the Great Barrier Reef.. if u haven't been there yet like me.. u'd better hurry.. it's going to become "functionally extinct" due to coral bleaching.

well.. i'm not going to talk about the details of the report coz everyone can read it from the news.
what i wanted to say is.. who should we blame all these things? and who are we blaming now?

Global warming and pollution is such a hot topic that u can actually link it with everything..
so.. I can almost hear someone talk about something related to pollution everytime when I have discussion in class..
when I say "class", I mean every class.. in different modules..
well... maybe this is because I'm a business student..?? I dunno..

I realized something interesting today when we were discussing about "free trade" in my Asia Pacific Business & Society tutorial..
we were talking about what we like / dislike about free trade...
somebody brought out the point of free trade leads to more pollution..
yes.. of course.. pollution..
she said something like..
some developing countries like China are benefited from free trade so that those countries can boost up their economies..
but on the other hand.. these countries usually dont care about environmental protection coz they're so focusing on developing their countries...

well... sounds ok to u? yes.. i think for most of the people nowadays..
yes.. we do blame for developing countries for polluting OUR world nowadays more..
but.. should we do that?

I'm not defending China just because I'm a Chinese.
but let's think a bit more before we blame..

yes.. these countries.. China, Indonesia, India.... they are all producing lots of pollution now..
but what about in the old days???
what about when those so called "developed countries" were not yet developed?
remember the days after Industrial Revolution in Europe - those "Western countries"?
if you compare the amount the pollution produced by 1 factory in China now and 1 factory in UK back in those days..
I really wonder who is the biggest pollutant...

but the thing is.. people didn't know about pollution at that time..
or even if they know.. they would have behaved the same as the developing countries now..
because.. nothing is more important than "getting better life NOW"
if the people in your country are starving, dying everyday.. would u care about pollution at all??
if u were the government of those countries, how would u face your people?
how could u tell them something like:
"no, we cant have more factories, we can't make and sell more goods.. otherwise ur grand-grand-grand child will not be able to enjoy this beautiful world... oh.. but i know that if we dont keep on selling goods.. u will die soon.. so.. u won't even have ur son! sorry!"

from experience.. for a country to be "developed", to make the people of the country to have good standard of living.. there is a certain path..
they either start from agriculture/fishing -> manufacuturing goods -> high technological products -> services.
seems to me that.. it's really hard to skip the "manufacturing" part..
even we can.. a country cannot be developed without developing lots of infrastructure, right?
its so easy for countries like US to blame China for polluting the world.. killing our tomorrow...
but what did they do in the past, and even now??

well.. u guys may think I'm crazy.
but I really think that.. if those developed countries didnt develop at all..
we will not have the distingush between "developed" "developing" and "under-developed" countries at all!
and those countries that "fall behind" will not do things to "catch up"
and the resources in the world will not be so unbalanced!
then.. there will not be so much damages!

but okay.. the damages are already here..

if those developed countries are sooooo "care" about OUR world..
what they can do.. is just give little help to the developing and under-developed countries.
help them to solve their problems..
but why don't they do that??
of course they wont!! they are so scared that one day these countries will be stronger than them!
but.... grow up! if u don't help, where the hell is the future?
well.. my English is just too bad.. I don't want to use "help" in my last sentence.. but really dunno which word to use.. anyway..

okay.. I have to admit that I'm a bit sensitive today...
let's go to bed now..

Settled down

I was going to write these last nite..
but after long long time of typing... the whole thing gone suddently!!


anyway.. let's start over..
many many things happened since the last time I wrote here.

I went for a 2-week trip in Australia with my family to celebrate my sister's gradution.
The trip was better than we expected... it was quite another long story to tell..
I may need to write it on another day..

Just 1 day after my family head back to Hong Kong, I started my journey to Singapore.
I arrived on the 28th Dec 2006, since I didn't get any confirmation from the hostel of NUs before I fly,
I booked a hotel for a few days to make sure I've somewhere to stay.

This is really my first time in life, stepping on a country without knowing anyone, what an exciting experience!
When I first went to Australia, my sister was already there.

My hotel is located in Aljurnied, which is quite a low class red light district to me... I'm not sure about this.
but u can see a lot of "ladies" standing everywhere on the street at nite... or sometimes even in the morning...
so.. when I walked on the street at nite.. I was stared by everyone on the street.. hahah.. quite scary...

So, I went to my hostel to see if I can check in a bit earlier.. and the answer was "yes.. as long as u pay for the extra days.."
so here I am in my hostel room.

The semester has already started for 3 weeks now..
most of the things are fine to me.. especially the work load here are slightly lighter than in ANU..
Here in NUS, I'm taking 5 modules (which is considered to be too much for exchange students....)
for those 5 modules, only 1 of them has final exam.
and as far as I remember, on 1 or 2 have individual assessment.
all others are bascially with 1 group project (report + presentation), 2 quizzes and participation..
While in ANU, we normally have all of the above + final exam - quizzes + 1 or 2 individual essay/report for each module

However, one thing I have to really try to get use to it is that.. most of the modules in Business Facualty here have 3-hr lectures...
I really wonder who made this kind of decision to have 3-hr lectures?? Do they know that people cannot concerntrate for so long?
The worst thing is.. during those 3hrs.. we ususally only have 5 minutes break!
It really kills me... I didn't fell asleep during those lectures, but I'm sure I can't take 100% out of it.. maybe only 70% or even lower..
coz sometimes I just have to let my brain take a rest or do a bit day dreaming before I can put some more into it..
Just checked with my timetable.. I've got class on Mon, Tue, Thu and Fri.. and one 3-hr lecture each day!!
Give me a break~~

something happened last week..
I won a 2nd prize in a photo competition held by the Internationl Relation Office of NUS. I was so excited!!

The competition is held for international students at NUS, the theme is "Looking Out.. Looking In"
I submit 1 photo each for the "people" and "lifestyle" category.
and I won the 2nd prize with the "people" one..
I never won any prizes in photo compeitions before.. (of course, I never participated before I start learning photography)
Actually, I also participated in another photo competition but I didnt win.. hahaha..
But.. I'm going to submit some photos for another competition again~~~
good luck to me~~
well.. I try to upload the photo which helped me won here... see if u like it or not~~
feel free to comment~

Seven Daffodils

Seven Daffodils
I may not have mansion, I haven't any land
Not even a paper dollar to crinkle in my hands
But I can show you morning on a thousand hills
And kiss you and give you seven daffodils.
I do not have a fortune to buy you pretty things
But I can weave you moonbeams for necklaces and rings
And I can show you morning on a thousand hills
And kiss you and give you seven daffodils.
Oh, seven golden daffodils all shining in the sun
To light our way to evening when our day is done
And I will give you music and a crust of bread
And a pillow of piny boughs to rest your head.
A pillow of piny boughs to rest your head...

Leaving in a month

One month left in Aus..
I'm leaving here on the 28th Dec..
another New Year Eve alone in a foreign country.. so weird..
but I'll be fine.

Small potato

I used to be an important person among my family, my friends, my classmates and my colleagues in the past.
People always come to me for suggestions when they have problems.
They trusted me, they thought that I have good analysis skills.

But everything has changed.
Nobody trust me now, not my family, not my friends, not my colleagues, of course not my classmates.
Somehow I know why.
Coz they think I can't even manage my own life.
and yes, they're right!

Honestly, I don't really wanna get back to the "important role" I used to have.
However, sometimes I do want to get involve and give suggestions especially when I notice somethings wrong!
but no one cares what I said now..sigh
yes.. I'm a small potato now.

fine, of course I don't care people don't come to me for they problems,
becoz it must be something wrong about me when they do so!
but, why are they excluding me even when those issues are related to me??
am I really that NOT important??
What I feel is that they just want me to shut up and say nothing and do whatever they say.
but I'm already 28.
should I be allowed to say something or at least let me know what's going on?

I know how people view me..
I'm 28 and still studying in university.
but what can I do?
I have no choice.
People want me to have a fxxking Bachelar Degree.
I don't mean I don't want it.. but I didn't want to give up my job and go overseas for 3 whole years at age 27!
I don't think I cant sucess without a Degree
and I'm not giving up my studies, I'm willing to do a part-time degree in HK.
But that's not they want.. and I'm doing want they want now..
and "furthering studies" doesn't make people respect me, on the other hand, i somehow feel that i've been looked down.

yes.. I know I shouldn't care about how people think about me..
but what about my family? shouldn't I care about them?
I came to study becoz of them.. and they now don't respect me anymore..

but.. what else can I do..?
I'll just accept my new role - small potato!

I'll just get away from people, friends and family..
and that's why I'm going to Singapore next month.. so I can live alone again.

it's time for me to live for myself.

Lie, damned lies and statistics

Social Situations
Lies are told in approximately one out of every three social situations.

Protect yourself
People's willingness to lie is motivated by their desire to protect their public self-image and also their internal sense of worth

Lying to friends
People are more willing to lie about performance on a task to people they know as opposed to people they do not know.

It's subjective
People are more likely to lie about their performance on a task when the results are subjective, as opposed to objective.


Argo, J.J., White, K. & Dahl, D.W. (2006) "Social comparison theory and deception in the interpersonal exchange of consumption information." Journal of Consumer Research, 33, 99-108

2 interesting animations

Male Restroom Etiquette

Nina and Gundam (Cat VS Gundam)


enjoy~

Leaving Australia

I'm going to study overseas (again) next year!
I've applied for exchange to National University of Singapore and finally got approved last week.
I just need some more administration stuff do deal with..
and I'm set to go..