Wanna give up again

I'm very tired.
Tired of everything.
Tired of my life.

How many times do I need to go over this?

When can I finally give up?

I love my job.

I love my job.
I really enjoy working with this organization.
I love my work, I love my boss, I love my colleagues.

I don't feel bad even I have to work from 9am - 8pm almost every day.
I don't feel bad even when I know I will have to work from 5/5 to 16/5 without any day off.
I don't feel bad even I usually just have time to go to toilet once during my working hours.

But....
I know I cannot stay here for very long.
I know I will leave soon... and I know people will be happy for me..

But I am still not very clear..
if I should take a job that I love, or a job that gives me more $ ?

When can I have my own life?
Never.