I am not ready to get back to the real world.
I am worse than ever before.
I will never be ready, physically and mentally.
I won't be able to survive in this kind of world.
I will find a way to leave.
But what I've learned today,
was to think more for the others.
If someone doesn't want to associate himself with you in front of other friends,
just stay away from that person, leave that person alone.
No matter how hard you try to be friendly, that person would just think the wrong way and do something to hurt you.
Since I really want this person to be happy, I will leave this person alone from now on.
Tonight I cried.
As far as I remember, this is the first time after I came back to Hong Kong.
No, I didn't cry for anyone. I cried for all the things around me. I cried for myself.
I don't know what to do,
but I guess I would have to be alone for a long long while.
Monday, January 21, 2008
I am not ready, I will never be.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Advice to the ladies
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a youth she's content to leave behind....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a feeling of control over her destiny...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go... be it to her best friend's kitchen table... or a charming inn in the woods... when her soul needs soothing...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month...and a year...
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
生日性格
10月2日出生的人是標準的「刀子嘴」，他們通常都將意見表達得很露骨，讓人不用玩猜啞謎遊戲。不過，人們因此而更為他們的節制和靈敏的談話技巧所打動，而且他們德高望重用不著動怒或發火就能夠順順當當地把別人給擺平。
今天出生的人可能會流於尖酸贏得薄，而引起點頭之交單就字面意義解讀他們的不滿。通常，他們並不清楚這些評論對敏感或臉皮薄的人多麼具有殺傷力。也難怪別人會說他們言行魯莽。
他們的和行為無法逃脫社會與政治的衝擊。有些人對社會的動作感興趣，他們非常瞭解別人的觀點，也擅長操縱別人。他們能將原先的壞狀況「乾坤大挪移」，變成有利的條件，或者改變那些會對他們構成障礙者的想法。
今天出生的人具有某種隱藏式的優雅，其魅力或未加修飾的力量都令人過目難忘。但是千萬別以為他們沒有哦，當他們「鐵」起心來時可不是省油的燈喔！雖然集攻擊力與防禦力之大成，不過他們多半先守後攻，以減少樹敵的衝突。
有時候，今天出生的人管不住自己的進取心，又羞怯又急切，簡直像「大姑娘上花轎」。他們年紀時可能會與暴力事件有瓜葛，所以，必須試著放輕鬆，設法維持內在的寧靜與平衡，才能避開一些衝突。對他們來說，能夠「若無其事」地表達自己的意見、看法、強勢與野心，是當務之急。
今天出生的人經常雙眼閃閃發亮、嘴角帶著微笑，喜歡款特別人，也喜歡被款待。在他們冰冷、譏諷的機智裡摻雜著些許的幽默，只是他們多半以別人為開玩笑的對象。當他們反過來成為別人開玩笑的對象時，就會恨不得鑽到地洞裡。總之，他們對幽默的看法永遠有雙重標準。
今天出生的人極端敏感的個性經常被難以親近或過度平易近人的外表掩飾，這些偽裝足以模糊他們真正的性格，何況他們還擅用機智拉開別人為他們內在的注意力呢。所以唯有當只跟屁蟲才有機會看穿他們情緒上致命傷。
幸運數字和守護星
10月2日出生的人會受到數字2和月亮的影響。數字2讓人扮演稱職的夥伴，而非領導者，因此今天出生的人很容易在工作崗位上「左右逢源」。然而，數字2對個人的獨創或行動具有剎車般的作用，這是他們挫折感的主要原因；此外，具有覲反省與被動傾向的月亮會使總是變得更複雜。好的方面主宰天秤座的金星會帶來優雅和魅力的特質，可以中和他們個性上稜角。
健康
今天出生的人請留意因企圖心受壓抑或害怕受傷害而引發的暴力。假使他們屬於激進分子，更須當心不要傷害別人。心理咨詢可以幫助他們發現發脾氣的肇因，以及該如何改進自己的行為和態度。今天出生的人請小心背部及服務部的意外傷害。安定的生活環境、平衡的飲食以及適量的運動，都是維持健康的準則。還有，請避免矯枉過正。
建議
不要帶著面具過活，讓別人看看你真正的自我。莫害怕，多多培養自信心。找出表達反感的適當方式，你的抗議確實會刺激到別人。請讓別人參觀你的生活圈。
名 人
甘地(Mohandas Gandhi)印度宗教、社會暨獨立運動領袖，原任律師，被印度人尊為「聖雄甘地」，開戾了以非暴力抵抗的政治運動，後來遭宗教狂熱分子暗殺，不幸身亡。
台灣影視演員及電視節目主持人吳大維，成名作為電影《今夜星光燦爛》及電視《吳滿秀》。
美國詩人史蒂文斯(Wallace Stevens)，被認為是當代最特立獨行的詩人，曾獲普立茲獎。
史汀(Sting)英籍歌手，也是歌曲作家、貝斯手、演員，還是活躍的生態保護者。
德意志共和國首任總統興登堡(Paul Von Hindenburg)，也是一次大戰期間德軍統帥。
美國民歌搖滾歌手、歌曲作者唐麥克連(Don McLean)。
塔羅牌
大秘儀塔羅牌的第2張是「女祭師」，她坐在寶座上，看來自在平靜，有些高深莫測。她擁有靈性，可以讓的隱藏的力量和秘密顯現，進而給予人們這些知識。所以當牌面正立時，顯示的是寧靜、直覺、含蓄以及謹慎；當牌面倒立時，則表示詭秘、猜疑、冷漠和遲緩。
靜思語
沉默之所以比言辭更有力，在於能夠讓思想沉寂，並可用來觸摸內心的自我，可別把沉默變賣成武器。
優點
機智、魅力、吸引力。
缺點
譏笑、壓抑、畏懼。
What about you?
